My last full day in France. I should be sad, I should be dreading going home, I should be crying, I should be saying goodbye to Grenoble...but I'm happy. I'm radiant. I am super. Because this experience was not a waste. I have met so many, almost countless, amazing wonderful people, I have learned so much about myself and about the world around me, and also, I don't need to say goodbye to Grenoble. I don't need to say goodbye to France.
Because I will be back. This isn't a goodbye, this is only a "see you later". :)
I would like to thank all of you that followed my blog and kept in touch with and and followed me on my adventures. I sincerely apologize for my consistent tardiness in updating my blog, but...well, I was in France, speaking French, studying French, and trying my best to be French, can you blame me? ;)
Updated or not, I hope you all enjoyed my blog, and I plan to share all of my memories with all of you lovely folk in person back home. I truly look forward to seeing each and one of you again! My friends and family have truly been something I missed while over here.
As my last blog post, I would like to make a small list of things that I have learned and that I want to "bring back with me" to the States, things that I feel have changed me for the better, and things that I would like to keep in my life as I make my voyage back home:
- I want to have more family dinners, concentrated around home-cooked food and conversation
- I want to establish stronger family and friendship ties
- I want to learn how to cook, both for my own survival purposes, and for the purpose of having guests over and serving them (hopefully) delicious meals
- I want to take control of my own education. There are a lot of things thrown at me day after day at school, but the real learning needs to take place at home. It's up to me to find the motivation to study on my own, get out there on my own, and learn on my own.
- I want to embrace the joy of hosting (parties, get-togethers, brunches, everything!)
- I want to be more open to meeting new people in class, at work, etc. - I might meet some really incredible people!
- I want to open myself up to learning culture and history on my own. Nothing is more humbling than being ignorant about the country you're living in!
- I want to open up, be myself, and be honest to people about myself - nobody will ever be honest with me unless I'm honest with them.
- Take time to enjoy nature. It's all around, I just need to know the right places to look.
- Take care of my body. My body is my temple. Walk whenever possible, eat healthier foods, keep unnecessary snacks out of the house!
- Find a passion, or a few passions, and really embrace them. Don't pick up a hobby, half-ass it, and claim to enjoy doing it. Really go all out, all or nothing!
- Never ever be afraid to speak French. Or Spanish. Or even German, after studying it for only one semester. Everybody starts somewhere, and everybody makes mistakes, but keeping those mistakes silent won't do anything. Get out their, speak the language with friends, and destroy those fears and mistakes!
- Appreciate friendships, and let go of the little things. Don't let small arguments, misunderstandings, or jealousy get in the way of what could be a wonderful friendship. And appreciate the friendships you do have more while you've got them - you don't realize how important people are to you until there is literally an ocean in the way.
- Really sit down and think twice before saying "I hate it here" or "I need a vacation" or "I need to just get away". Suddenly, when you are away, you find yourself missing all of those places and people and things. Make the best out of it, and enjoy it while you can!
- Have less things. There were a lot of times where I missed home or I did not feel comfortable because I wasn't surrounded by all of my 'things'. When in reality, those 'things' don't define me at all. I would like to consume less, and keep fewer things to my name, things that are really important, and just the right amount of things where if I had to get up and go at any given moment, I could pack a small bag, leave, and still always feel at home.
- Never, ever judge anyone's ability or inability to do something, and never put your abilities above those of others. I used to always believe that I was a hot-shot in French, that I was the best student, that I could be dropped into a French society and survive no problem. Well, being dropped into France was definitely a humbling experience for me. I don't speak fluent French, and there is a lot, a lot, that I still have to learn. I found myself stumbling on words when ordering a piece of bread at the bakery. Yeah, okay, "best student". I am on the same track as everybody else, and the only way we can all reach the end successfully is if we all help each other reach it together.
- Finally, embrace life. Enjoy it. No matter what your mind is telling you, no matter what people are telling you, no matter what is happening all around, I want to be able to take at least two minutes out of every day, look at myself in the mirror, and just smile and appreciate who I am, what I have, and the life that I live.
I really have to thank France for everything she has given me these past four months. She will forever be an important chapter in my life, and I will never forget her. I'll see you again soon, France - I look forward to it! =)